Who knew....

Wow, wedding planning is a lot of work! I am on the phone with Joe, my wedding consultant almost every day now. We have room blocks to prepare for, a wedding website to prepare, the contract to do, etc. It is a lot and the costs seem to be piling up. There might be something to eloping but this is my dream. A dream I might regret when I see the total costs, but it should be worth it.

I was not sure I wanted it recorded but everyone tells me I won't remember most of it so to record it. Videographers are expensive but is it worth it? I saw a video by this lady in Florida and it is AMAZING. It is like a movie but she is so much money. All of them are so much money. Plus with DVD's turning into Blu Rays, will we be able to watch it 30 years from now (and be wishing we still looked as good as we did on that day?) I wish they would just stop at Blu Ray. Seriously. I have been through Beta, VHS, DVD and now Blu Ray. Stick with one thing people.

I am trying to block the rooms but no one knows where they would stay. I know 9 months is a long time away for people, but I need to secure the discounted rates. I don't want people thinking they are getting a discount when no one is responding to my request of are you coming, where are you staying email. Most people want to smack me I am sure, but the ball is rolling and won't be stopping any time soon.

Then comes the bridesmaids. I wish I could have 40 but that is not feasible. I love all my friends dearly and each and every one of them has played an important role in my life. Different people are important for different reasons in my life and I want everyone to stand up there with me. Choosing the girls is SO hard. I don't want people's feelings to be hurt but Bryan thinks with how many I want, the majority of our guests will be at the altar with me. He has a point. I can also hear my mom saying I have too many. This is all so hard. At least choosing my future husband was easy. Phew. Wow, husband. I still can't believe I am getting married.

I am trying to enjoy the process and love every minute of it. Time is fleeting and this time will never come again. I can't wait to be with Bryan and the boys, and I look forward to our life together. I just want to get some of this out of the way and not regret anything. I also pray I do not give my father a heart attack with how much things cost.

On another note, I went with Kate and her parents dress shopping last night. She found the "one" and ordered it. How exciting! No more dress shopping for us gals now. We both found our dress. I want to wear it ALL the time but I don't get to see it again for 14 more weeks. I was mad they ordered the bigger size but with my foot broken, I can't work out for another 5 or so weeks. Maybe the bigger size was a good idea.

I booked our castle portraits and although I am so excited to have those pictures, I do hope I can look decent at 4 am the day after our wedding. It is Bryan's birthday so that will be nice. I pray no one spills red wine on my dress as I have to wear it the next day. Fingers crossed! Bryan says we will just stay up all night but I don't foresee that happening. Joe said our adrenaline will be pumping so the next day is a good idea. Plus we will not have the kids that night, so it will be easier in the morning.

Breathe Dani. Breathe.